And When I Die

"And When I Die"
Season 4, Episode 12
Air date	September 11, 2011
Written by	Raelle Tucker
Directed by	Scott Winant
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"And When I Die" is the twelfth and final episode of Season 4 of True Blood. It is also the 48th episode overall.

Synopsis

“We are not fucking puppy dogs!” - Bill Compton

It's Samhain, the Witch's greatest celebration, also known as Halloween. The episode opens with Jesus apologizing to Lafayette, possessed by Marnie's spirit without Jesus knowing, about pushing him into Magic before he was ready. Lafayette proceeds to stab Jesus in the hand with a fork. The scene then cuts to Sookie in her kitchen when she sees her grandma's dead body on the ground before it vanishes as Tara comes in. She tells Tara that she feels that Gran was with her.

Meanwhile, Sam is attending Tommy's funeral with Maxine Fortenberry and she tells him that, "While Tommy wasn't my flesh and blood, he was a son to me and Sam you should call me 'Momma' from now on."

Jason goes to Hoyt to confess his interaction with Jessica but when he does, Hoyt violently beats him to the ground and tells him that there's something that's just missing from inside Jason. He walks away while Jason mutters that he's sorry.

Jesus, who has been tied to a chair by Lafayette, tries to reason with Marnie inside of him who simply blows him off, refusing to accept that Antonia wanted to leave her. Jesus then asks what she wants to which she replies that she wants his magic. All of it.

Meanwhile at Merlotte's, everyone is celebrating Halloween. Sookie comes in and talks to Sam who realizes that Tommy, while in Sam's form, had fired Sookie but he chooses not to tell her and gives her her job back.

Back with Jesus and Lafayette, Marnie threatens Jesus with Lafayette's life if he doesn't give her his powers. Jesus finally gives up and summons the Demon inside of him. Lafayette then stabs him in the chest and licks the blood off the knife, transferring the Demon's powers to him.

In Merlotte's, an old friend of Terry's from the Marines arrives to say hello to him and becomes acquinted with Arlene. Alcide also comes in and tells Sookie he broke up with Debbie. He tells her that he was seeing clearly for the first time and that he wants Sookie to do the same. Getting what he's implying, Sookie says that she can't change who she loves even though she's tried but Alcide simply says "Try harder."

Tara goes to check up on Lafayette only to find Jesus inside. She drives all the way to Merlotte's to warn Sookie and Holly. They predict that Marnie would go after Bill and Eric and drive over to Bill's house to find both Vampire's chained in silver and tied to a post over a pile of wood. Lafayette/Marnie appears and Tara begs her to stop. She refuses and sets fire to the wood under Bill and Eric. Sookie uses her gift to push Lafayette out of a circle of salt that Holly had made and his face becomes demonic.

Holly, Sookie and Tara begin chanting a spell that creates a barrier around the circle and causes spirits from the graveyard, including Antonia and Sookie's Gran to appear in front of them.

Antonia blows out the fire like a candle and Gran pulls Marnie out of Lafayette's body. Antonia then persuades Marnie to forget her rage for the vampires and come to the afterlife with her. Sookie asks her Gran to stay, saying that she's lost and doesn't know what to do without her. Gran replies saying that she can't stay and that Sookie knows in her heart what to do. She then goes with the other ghosts back to the netherworld.

Back at Merlotte's Arlene sees Drew Marshall's ghost appear to her. He tells her to run and vanishes as Terry comes out. Jessica runs over to Jason's house who lets her in and she realizes that he told Hoyt about them. They proceed to make love on the sofa. Jessica tells Jason that she doesn't want to be his girlfriend because she doesn't want to hurt him like she did Hoyt. Jason agrees and they continue to make love.

Meanwhile at Fangtasia, Pam is throwing a fit over Sookie stealing Eric away from her and bursts into tears over loosing her Maker.

At Sookie's house, Tara is trying to console Lafayette over what happened to Jesus who blames himself for what he did to him. Later that night, Jesus appears to Lafayette and tells him that he's fine with what happened. Lafayette asks him how he's meant to live with what he did to which Jesus replies, "Just keep breathing." and leaves.

Sookie feeds her blood to Bill and Eric and admits that she's in love with both of them but says that she can't be with either of them. They try to stop her but she stands by her choice and walks out of Bill's house, sobbing.

At Merlotte's, Andy gives Holly some flowers, apologizing for the disaster at their date and admitting that he was on V. Holly forgives him and says that, "I need a hug" and Andy gives her one.

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Back at Jason's, Jessica and Jason are talking about their relationship and Jason asks if there's a part of him that's missing to which she says that there isn't. She leaves after a few minutes and someone knocks on the door. Jason goes to answer it and is shocked to see Steve Newlin standing there, baring newly made fangs at him.

Meanwhile, Alcide gets a call from a work colleague of his about a hole being dug in the ground and goes to investigate. He discovers that the worker has been glamoured and that Russell Edgington has broken out of his imprisonment in concrete.

At Bill's, Nan Flanagan arrives with three V-Feds and tells Bill and Eric that she quit the AVL and The Authority. She also says that there's a price on the two's heads and that she requests them to join her in a mutiny against the Authority.

They respond by killing the guards and Nan.

At Sookie's, Debbie is pointing a shotgun at Sookie but before she fires, Tara pushes Sookie out the way, taking the shot to the head intended for Sookie. Sookie, in a fit of rage wrestles Debbie to the ground and shoots her in the head. The episode ends with Sookie cradling Tara's likely dead body in her arms and screaming for help.

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Notes

Bloopers and continuity errors

• In Cold Grey Light of Dawn, Pam hires Dr. Ludwig to cure her decomposing state, stating that she would look as she used to, but still be decomposing in the inside. Since then, we see Pam regenerated but with veins painted in her face and neck: After Antonia finds peace in Soul of Fire, all spells cast by her are reverted, but in this episode we see Pam with Ginger using the same clothes that she wears in the previous episode, where she leaves Moon Goddess Emporium and shortly after that Marnie dies. It is not clear if the spell cast on Pam wasn't reverted or if the scene was filmed during the shootings of "Soul of Fire", not leaving time enough for a new shoot with a costume and make-up arrangement.

Featured music

• Drivin' Nails in my Coffin - Those Darlins
• Rockin' Bones - Ronnie Dawson
• Monster Mash - Bobby (Boris) Pickett & The Crypt Kickers
• On a Fast Moving Train - The Great Crusaders
• Bucket of Blood - The Great Crusaders
• Where Did You Sleep Last Night - Jim Oblon
• Aly, Walk with Me - The Raveonettes
• Dogs of Hell - Jason Novak
• And When I Die - The Heavy

Memorable quotes

• Alcide: "People don't change. They just find new ways to lie."

• Sam: "Nobody taught Tommy how to love somebody without hurting them."

• Jesus: “You can’t trade magic like fucking Pokémon cards!”

• Arlene: "You two wanna go trick or treating at the trailer park again getting bags of empty Coors cans and food stamps or do you want candy? Your choice."

• Pam: "I am over Sookie and her precious fairy vagina and her unbelievably stupid name!"

• Eric: "Revenge won't bring you peace."

• Marnie: "This fucking sucks!"

• Eric: "Excuse me. We're feeling a little crispy here."

• Eric: “Hi, Nan… and gay Stormtroopers.”

• Eric: “Bill had his chance. He blew it. He lied to you.”

• Eric: "Oh, so you'd sacrifice my progeny instead of your own. How very un-kingly of you."

• Bill: “I liked you better when you were brain-damaged”

• Jesus: "Just keep breathing, baby."

• Alcide: “People always say ‘follow your heart’. What if your heart keeps telling you to do the same stupid shit over and over again?”

Cast

Starring Anna Paquin as Sookie Stackhouse Stephen Moyer as Bill Compton Sam Trammell as Sam Merlotte Ryan Kwanten as Jason Stackhouse Rutina Wesley as Tara Thornton Alexander Skarsgård as Eric Northman Kevin Alejandro as Jesus Velasquez Chris Bauer as Andy Bellefleur Kristin Bauer van Straten as Pam Swynford De Beaufort Lauren Bowles as Holly Cleary Nelsan Ellis as Lafayette Reynolds Janina Gavankar as Luna Garza Todd Lowe as Terry Bellefleur Joe Manganiello as Alcide Herveaux Jim Parrack as Hoyt Fortenberry Carrie Preston as Arlene Fowler Fiona Shaw as Marnie Stonebrook Jessica Tuck as Nan Flanagan Deborah Ann Woll as Jessica Hamby Special guest starring Brit Morgan as Debbie Pelt Lois Smith as Adele Stackhouse Michael Raymond James as Rene Lenier Michael McMillian as Steve Newlin Scott Foley as Patrick Devins Guest starring Dale Raoul as Maxine Fortenberry Paola Turbay as Antonia Tara Buck as Ginger Jayden Lund as Doug

Co-starring Alec Gray as Coby Fowler Laurel Weber as Lisa Fowler Chloe Noelle as Emma Garza