"If You Love Me, Why Am I Dyin'?"
Season 4, Episode 03
Air date	July 10, 2011
Written by	Alan Ball
Directed by	David Petrarca
Episode Guide
previous "You Smell Like Dinner"	next "I'm Alive and on Fire"

"If You Love Me, Why Am I Dyin" is the third episode of Season 4 of True Blood and the 39th episode overall.

Contents 1 Synopsis 2 Notes 2.1 Allusions 2.2 Production 2.3 Bloopers and continuity errors 2.4 Featured music 3 Memorable Quotes 3.1 Eric 3.2 Pam 3.3 Bill 3.4 Lafayette 3.5 Crystal 3.6 Tara 3.7 Andy 3.8 Jason 4 Memorable Dialogue 5 Trailer 6 Cast 6.1 Starring 6.2 Special guest starring 6.3 Guest starring 6.4 Co-starring 7 Comments

SynopsisEdit

"You just killed my fairy godmother!"

―Sookie to Eric

Sookie finds a shirtless Eric wandering the streets, suffering from amnesia. Sookie tries to run away, but after seeing the seriousness of his situation, decides to help. She tries to conceal the fact that he owns her house, and even keeps him from stepping on the rug with his muddy feet, but after mistakenly calling Pam for help, the truth comes out and Sookie is pushed further into the situation, especially since Pam believes this was set up by Bill.

Jason is still captive in Hotshot. He is covered in bite wounds and his transformation from human to werepanther is nearly complete. He pleads with Crystal to let him go. She refuses, intending to use him to get her pregnant and continue the pack, which has been decimated by inbreeding. Luther sits and tells stories to the younger generation of inbred werepanthers.

A Vampire is caught on amateur video feeding on a human. The clip is uploaded to YouTube and Bill sentences the vampire to true death for the crime of being caught feeding. Bill gets a visit from a very guilty Jessica, who has just cheated on Hoyt Fortenberry (by feeding on another human) and isn’t sure what to do. This illuminates Bill’s deception of Sookie, and creates a sweet moment between the maker and his progeny.

Marnie Stonebrook awakens unable to remember cursing Eric. Lafayette Reynolds tells the coven that they need to make amends, or Eric will kill them all for what they have done. The coven members decide that they need to fight back to preserve their freedom of religion. Tara is upset that after two days in Bon Temps she is already dealing with vampires and witches. She urges Lafayette to stay away from Fangtasia. He ignores her and is attacked by Pam. Tara and Jesus arrive in time to intervene, and Pam gives them 24 hours to make things right.

Sookie visits Alcide in Shreveport, and is surprised to find him living with a sober, and newly blonde, Debbie. Tommy is still living with Maxine, and during one of her many calls to the home shopping channel, he answers the door to a prospector wanting to buy the natural gas rights on her property. Tommy keeps the news to himself, and goes to Sam with a plan to steal the proceeds from selling her rights. Sam is unimpressed, and urges Tommy to come clean.

Jessica returns home and confesses to Hoyt, who is angry with her. A weird doll is also back in their home, and seems to keep returning, no matter what they do to get rid of it. It adds fuel to the fire of their argument as Hoyt thinks Jessica is playing a joke on him. Out of desperation, Jessica glamours Hoyt to forget that anything ever happened. Later Jessica goes to give the doll to Arlene’s baby, calling it an heirloom. Arlene remains suspicious of her infant son because of his father.

Marnie tries to reconnect with the spirit that possessed her, raising a glimpse in the mirror. We also get another look at tough-as-nails Tara, who continues to show incredible growth.

Andy's sister Portia Bellefleur makes a pass at Bill. He is receptive but has reservations. She feels she can live with his terms and the two go off together. Andy continues to struggle with his V addiction, saying a sobriety prayer but giving in and taking a dose while on patrol.

Sookie arrives home late at night and instead of Eric finds Claudine on her front porch. Claudine asserts that she has saved Sookie many times, and begs for Sookie to join her. Eric attacks Claudine suddenly and begins to feed on her. Claudine's light is slowly taken from her and her body turns to ash. Sookie yells at Eric for killing her fairy godmother, and he weakly replies, "Sorry."

NotesEdit

AllusionsEdit

When Sookie is sitting at the dinner table, the book she is reading is Grave Secret by Charlaine Harris, who invented Sookie and the other True Blood characters.

ProductionEdit

Bloopers and continuity errorsEdit

Featured musicEdit

• "The Wreck of Us" - Acumen Nation
• "If You Love Me (Why Am I Dyin')" - Boxing Ghandis
• "Montgomery Moonlight" - Ohio Sound Machine
• "Restraining Order Blues" - Michelle Malone
• "Nowhere" - G. DaPonte
• "Who Needs Forever" (Thievery Corporation Remix) - Astrud Gilberto
• "Child's Play" - Dave Pezzner
• "Season of the Witch" - Karen Elson feat. Donavon

Memorable QuotesEdit

EricEdit

• "I know I'm a vampire Snookie!"
• [to Sookie] “It tickles ... You are really beautiful.”
• “Would you like to be mine?”

PamEdit

• [as she's feeding on a loud fangbanger]: "Dial it back a notch, Jethro. You're starting to piss me off."
• "I will give you 24 hours to deliver that witch to me. And if you don't, I will personally eat, fuck and kill all three of you.
• "Eric has to stay here with you and no one can know."

BillEdit

• [to Portia] "I can never love you."

Lafayette Edit

• [to Tara] "Bitch you need to do yourself a solid and get the fuck on out this fucked up place."
• "I'm going to beddy-bed, ya’ll bitches clean."

CrystalEdit

• "I'm gonna be mama to all your baby cubs. Of which there will be many."

TaraEdit

• "I was just traumatized."
• "It's been a while since I've been attacked by a vampire, and guess what, it still sucks."

AndyEdit

• "God grant me the serenity... fuck it."

JasonEdit

• "You've reached Officer Jason Stackhouse. If this is an emergency, dial 911 and ask for me."

Memorable DialogueEdit

Sookie: "Eric! You just killed my Fairy Godmother!"
Eric: "Sorry..."

TrailerEdit

Trailer Episode 3(00:37)
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CastEdit

StarringEdit Anna Paquin as Sookie Stackhouse Stephen Moyer as Bill Compton Sam Trammell as Sam Merlotte Ryan Kwanten as Jason Stackhouse Rutina Wesley as Tara Thornton Alexander Skarsgård as Eric Northman Kevin Alejandro as Jesus Velasquez Marshall Allman as Tommy Mickens Chris Bauer as Andy Bellefleur Kristin Bauer van Straten as Pam Swynford De Beaufort Lauren Bowles as Holly Cleary Nelsan Ellis as Lafayette Reynolds Janina Gavankar as Luna Garza (credit only) Todd Lowe as Terry Bellefleur Joe Manganiello as Alcide Herveaux Jim Parrack as Hoyt Fortenberry Carrie Preston as Arlene Fowler Bellefleur Fiona Shaw as Marnie Stonebrook Jessica Tuck as Nan Flanagan (credit only) Deborah Ann Woll as Jessica Hamby Special guest starringEdit Brit Morgan as Debbie Pelt

Guest starringEdit Lindsay Pulsipher as Crystal Norris Dane DeHaan as Timbo Courtney Ford as Portia Bellefleur James Harvey Ward as Felton Norris Lara Pulver as Claudine Crane Dale Raoul as Maxine Fortenberry Tara Buck as Ginger Paola Turbay as Antonia Gavilán de Logroño James McCauley as Paul McClatchy Aubrey Deeker as a Vampire Dean Chekvala as Roy Dendrie Taylor as Beverleen Fiona Dourif as Casey E.J. Callahan as Luther Lauren Weedman as La Donna Co-starringEdit Blaine Saunders as Becky Brandon Molale as Officer X Michelle Luchese as a Young Woman Brian Treitler as a Camera Operator Sam Horrigan as Pam's Fangbanger Dan Sachoff as a Conservative

True Blood Season 4
<< Season 1 • << Season 2 • << Season 3	Season 5 >>
#01 "She's Not There"	#07 "Cold Grey Light of Dawn"
#02 "You Smell Like Dinner"	#08 "Spellbound"
#03 "If You Love Me, Why Am I Dyin'?"	#09 "Let's Get Out of Here"
#04 "I'm Alive and on Fire"	#10 "Burning Down the House"
#05 "Me and the Devil"	#11 "Soul of Fire"
#06 "I Wish I Was the Moon"	#12 "And When I Die"